Uncategorized – Finding Peace after the Storm

Childhood Dreams and Reality

As far back as I could remember I dreamt of being a wife, mother, and having a full house of kids. As I grew older, that number would shift and I knew that I wanted at least 3 kids…maybe 4. I desperately wanted the best of both worlds…. sons and daughters. My mom didn’t haveContinue reading “Childhood Dreams and Reality”

Happy Birthday Ezra!

This is always a difficult time of year. We go from celebrating our amazing little Ezra born in September to mourning Zechariah in October. Today though, we celebrate Ezra, who despite testing and imaging showing that he would have chronic health issues, disabilities, or just not live past one year – is the ripe ageContinue reading “Happy Birthday Ezra!”

Ezra

This post was written by both Brianna (pink) and Jeff (blue). Two pink lines – many people would be ecstatic. Unfortunately, I saw two pink lines and I cried. I cried out of anger, fear, resentment, confusion…all the feelings, except joy. This was just another thing that the loss of Zechariah took from me. ZechariahContinue reading “Ezra”

Special Moments

Special moments – when I think of my most special moments in life, many flashbacks come to my mind. Times with friends and family, getting engaged, getting married, finding out I was pregnant, and becoming a mom to name just a few. There are tangible things that are special and reflect these moments. My wedding/anniversaryContinue reading “Special Moments”

Joy

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about Joy. The saying that joy comes in the morning particularly comes to mind. When I write my cards to mama’s I tend to just write what’s on my heart in the moment. No card is really the same. However I always find myself writing that I pray thatContinue reading “Joy”

The Story of Our First Miracle

I (Brianna) have been remembering lately how God has remained faithful even when I didn’t trust Him. Even when it was hard to see that He was in the midst of things, He was there working things out in His way and in His timing. this can be so hard for me, as I haveContinue reading “The Story of Our First Miracle”

Hope Mommy Retreat 2022

I did something recently. Something completely out of my comfort zone. Something that scares me, makes me uncomfortable, and makes me question if I should “undo” it. With a lot of prompting, and pushing from Jeff, I signed up to attend my first Hope Mommy Retreat, coming up in April. The thing is for theContinue reading “Hope Mommy Retreat 2022”

Where is God?

Where is God? Where was God when my baby’s heart stopped beating? Where was He when my wife and I sat on the hospital bed cradling our son’s body? These are tough questions that I’ve battled with off and on over the past three years. Sometimes, I’m sure and confident in the reality that HeContinue reading “Where is God?”

Worship in the midst of pain

At church on Sunday morning a familiar song was played. This song has never really brought forth much emotion from me. Don’t get me wrong, these past few years, worship has been hard. I find myself crying 90% of the Sundays. Songs, lyrics, hit me like never before, and I find myself with tears streamingContinue reading “Worship in the midst of pain”

Two years….from my mama heart

Two years…It’s been two years since I delivered our sleeping baby. Two years since I held him in my arms, prayed over him, cried until the tears wouldn’t come, kissed his beautiful face, and asked God all the “whys” Two years ago my life was forever changed. The way I love my husband, the wayContinue reading “Two years….from my mama heart”